Realised

* Going online in the group whereas you don't want to .

* Seeing someone online - whom you called your bestest friend sometimes before and now you two are not talking - * feel like slapping myself for going online then* .

* You know that person is ignoring you & you don't even wanna spend a millisecond in that place again * feels like shouting at him - for god's sake break the silence *  .

* You realize that its only you who is disturbed & having the trauma - you feel ashamed of yourself that you cant even maintain a friendship long .

* You sit & cry - but deep somewhere shout at yourself because your tears show that you were too much depended on your that specified net friend .

* You write him as net friend & shatter because you even know yourself that he was a friend once not net friend- but now things are changed - for the unknown reasons .

* You feel like a bitch as you think always about someone who don't even remember that you exist .

* You feel like a toy - as you know for him you were no "yes she is my nice friend" types- you are just like the others in the friend list - and you d dumb girl took him as amongst the special ones in the list.

* You know you deserve to be called as a crap for being so attached to someone .

& I realise that yes m a bitch, stupid , emotional fool , illogical, clumsy , worthless of a kind for few * or for most * .

I wish i would have never entered in the lives of few.