A normal day . A normal ghar office tutions calls texts watsapp facebook. nothing alag . Everytime i write here i feel like the most silliest stupidest idiotic crying girl jiske paas aur kuch kaam nahi h apart from thinking about you whenever she gets a chance & then gets upset & then write here like a dumb . But kya karu ? At the time jab i parted wid dodo - it was my decision - & so i parted wid everyone mutual between me & him . & also the reason was something els. But in your case - its just something I cant accept that easily. neither can i stop giving social appearnces nor can i be present & feel d ignorance. Tortured .
What kills me inside is that its hell effecting me only ? & m afraid that the next time I call you, u ll be saying that " ismey itna sochne ki kya baat thi.. mere paas aur bhi bohot kaam hai". &i know yu will .. yu still think that m silly enough to react so much itni si baat pe .. yu might think that to kya hua tat we r nt tlkin-lyf dono ki running ryt. But how do i make myself understnd this.
I dunno. everytime i pick up my phn - i feel like ringing you. but then i remeber ur last words - the straight ones - jo log mere sab mey nahi aatey mai unse baat nahi krta so hum nahi krnge baat . i guess tum samjh lete mene us din kya kaha tha.
I got so many things to say tumhe. remember how i have blabbered tumhare aagey ? lol. sabkuch ni . & now - i dont feel like sharing-altho i do - but then.
i mean m wid the rest of frendz- but wat shud i do agar i miss yu to. yu are also my frend. & ur absence does matters.
I wish tum ye kabhi na padho . coz padhke tumhe yehi kehna h k m stupid enuf to think itna. ya yehi sunna k it dint effctd yu at all.
I srsly evny thinking k ab u gt other nyc frendz who replaced me shyad. ya agar replc kara bhi nahi to atleast absence yaad nii aaney di- or d absnc was nt impt ryt.
neyws j . miss yu. hope yu dont make it too late to cm back.
ur frend .
What kills me inside is that its hell effecting me only ? & m afraid that the next time I call you, u ll be saying that " ismey itna sochne ki kya baat thi.. mere paas aur bhi bohot kaam hai". &i know yu will .. yu still think that m silly enough to react so much itni si baat pe .. yu might think that to kya hua tat we r nt tlkin-lyf dono ki running ryt. But how do i make myself understnd this.
I dunno. everytime i pick up my phn - i feel like ringing you. but then i remeber ur last words - the straight ones - jo log mere sab mey nahi aatey mai unse baat nahi krta so hum nahi krnge baat . i guess tum samjh lete mene us din kya kaha tha.
I got so many things to say tumhe. remember how i have blabbered tumhare aagey ? lol. sabkuch ni . & now - i dont feel like sharing-altho i do - but then.
i mean m wid the rest of frendz- but wat shud i do agar i miss yu to. yu are also my frend. & ur absence does matters.
I wish tum ye kabhi na padho . coz padhke tumhe yehi kehna h k m stupid enuf to think itna. ya yehi sunna k it dint effctd yu at all.
I srsly evny thinking k ab u gt other nyc frendz who replaced me shyad. ya agar replc kara bhi nahi to atleast absence yaad nii aaney di- or d absnc was nt impt ryt.
neyws j . miss yu. hope yu dont make it too late to cm back.
ur frend .
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