There comes a time when yu dont need a reason to be sad - you are sad coz theres something which is struck within you .
# something which is killing you inside .
#something which stays in your mind till you are awake.
#something which you might recall but not accept.
& at the end of the day you come up with nothing but asking yourself " why i dint smiled today ? "
Might be it was because of the irritating people you met around during your day in office.
Might be it was because your students pissed off your mind to the fullest extent.
Might be its for the regular marriage followups by your parents.
Or might be something else-But then all i need to know is why such depressions curb me when there are no fixed solutions to them- why i need to be sad for thingz -which dont even matters for the world..
The matter doesnt end here ..you are sad - but you HAVE to pretend to be normal - coz if the world comes to know about your sadness - you will die answering 100000000 questions-to which theres not even fixed replies-& then you understand that its better to fake a smile then to overcome the doubts & question marks of the rest..
* You cant go offline in whatsapp- else peepz will follow asking " are you sad ? y nt thr in watsapp? "
* You are bound to be there in fb-else they will conclude you are crying for some unnecessary thingyz.
* You should use a smily in every chat reply- otherwise-answer them why your mood is off ..
*You should behave as d jolly girl- else you need to give an explanation for your low mood.
Friends afterall-they can get you-however hard to try to disguise yourself.. & thats the worst thingz al times..coz neither you can explain it to themselves- nor you can lie..
But then the same question lies-how are you supposed to tell anyone anything when you yourself dunno - whats wrong.
I might overthink / overreact / too senti to handle / too stupid to be normal - but thats me right- cant change myself- although i wish i could .. coz i envy people when they feel nothng even if the whole world shatters-for them its just life- which goes on..
ps- i wish i hd known why i have nt smiled today
# something which is killing you inside .
#something which stays in your mind till you are awake.
#something which you might recall but not accept.
& at the end of the day you come up with nothing but asking yourself " why i dint smiled today ? "
Might be it was because of the irritating people you met around during your day in office.
Might be it was because your students pissed off your mind to the fullest extent.
Might be its for the regular marriage followups by your parents.
Or might be something else-But then all i need to know is why such depressions curb me when there are no fixed solutions to them- why i need to be sad for thingz -which dont even matters for the world..
The matter doesnt end here ..you are sad - but you HAVE to pretend to be normal - coz if the world comes to know about your sadness - you will die answering 100000000 questions-to which theres not even fixed replies-& then you understand that its better to fake a smile then to overcome the doubts & question marks of the rest..
* You cant go offline in whatsapp- else peepz will follow asking " are you sad ? y nt thr in watsapp? "
* You are bound to be there in fb-else they will conclude you are crying for some unnecessary thingyz.
* You should use a smily in every chat reply- otherwise-answer them why your mood is off ..
*You should behave as d jolly girl- else you need to give an explanation for your low mood.
Friends afterall-they can get you-however hard to try to disguise yourself.. & thats the worst thingz al times..coz neither you can explain it to themselves- nor you can lie..
But then the same question lies-how are you supposed to tell anyone anything when you yourself dunno - whats wrong.
I might overthink / overreact / too senti to handle / too stupid to be normal - but thats me right- cant change myself- although i wish i could .. coz i envy people when they feel nothng even if the whole world shatters-for them its just life- which goes on..
ps- i wish i hd known why i have nt smiled today
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